Is this a “Heart Want” or an “Ego Want?”



When we really start to examine our manifestation process it becomes clear that there seems to be some confusion about what we want to manifest and what ends up manifesting. Many times we can feel confused or frustrated by the apparent lack of communication between our desires and the universe. In order to understand this phenomenon further we need to examine our internal process more closely- What exactly is a desire, and where do they come from?

A desire is not a wish that your heart makes, it is your hearts way of letting you know what you have coming to you.

A desire is more than just an attraction to something you feel you need, it is actually your higher-selfs way of communicating to you what you have coming to you. Without desire there would be no magnetic pull to attract what you need for next level of expansion in this life. Desires are your higher-self’s way of preparing you for your next step. At times needing something can be perceived as feeling an internal void or a sense of lack, this is because we feel the gap of not yet experiencing it. It must be said that there is no time when it comes to the heart; we simply perceive time between our manifestations because we are third dimensional beings and we need a linear time paradigm to function. Once we start accepting that concept our focus shifts from chasing dreams, to aligning with them knowing we wouldn’t even want it unless it was on its way to us right now.

Emotion is pure magnetics.

The emotion of desire is a powerful, healthy feeling that tunes and focus’ us in on the next step in our life. The feeling of desire allows you to ease your dreams into your existence. Once you have a desire consciously or unconsciously you begin making room for it, you start to become familiar with it, you start to make it real and ground it into your physical reality. When we fully realize this process we begin to see that dreams are not random or irrelevant to your existence; they are directly connected to your heart and the key to your happiness in this life.

If the heart is so powerful and desires are actually indicators of what is on its way to us right now why am I not manifesting what I feel I need?

One word. Ego. Our egos have the potential of clouding and undermining all communications from the heart. It is this phenomenon that slows down the process of manifestation. In order for something to materialize into our physical reality our third dimensional consciousness needs to acknowledge it and align with it as much as possible. That means your belief systems must be conducive to what you want to manifest.

If there are belief systems within you that directly conflict with the potential reality you are manifesting, your manifestation will become paralyzed until you can release the belief systems and get out of the way. If you are wanting a better life and it is not happening for you, it means you need to release the patterns, relationships, activities, habits, etc. that are in conflict with your potential. You must be willing to step into the void, even though it can feel uncomfortable, if you want to manifest a better reality

The ego is a lower aspect of our consciousness that enables us to function in third dimensional reality. It forms belief systems around past experiences “protecting” and “helping” us live in the future. The lower aspect of our consciousness (our ego) is often at odds with our higher self (the heart), as they each aid our consciousness in experiencing in our 3.D world. The Ego has its own standards, agenda, and set of desires, and it must be said that the agenda of the ego is usually fairly shallow, fear based and predictable.

If we want to get good at manifesting we need to develop clarity through distinguishing if the desires we have are based in the ego or based in the heart.

Ego Based Desires

Ego based desires can be easily identified as they are usually shallow and empty feeling upon examination. A good indicator that your ego is running the show is if you have strong desire for fame or money, as these are not concepts that make sense to the heart. The heart knows abundance and recognition is a product of a balanced and healthy relationship between the ego and the heart. The ego will often form its desires around fears you have developed as opposed to what makes you genuinely happy. Ego based desires can also be overly competitive, self-serving and greedy; this is because the ego is always concerned with having more. The ego believes in stockpiling, scarcity, and lack and it is always concerned with protecting you from them. The ego can also encourage you to make overly safe decisions and hinder your progress as it deems taking risks as unsafe or ridiculous. The ego only bases its judgments on what it knows; it is not capable of perceiving outside the box and does not consider your “potential” to be real. Ego based fears string you along because you feel as though you are looking out for yourself or protecting yourself. It may be helpful to dig deep and consider the roots of your desires before you start taking action toward them.

Heart Based Desires

One of the biggest mistakes people make during the manifestation process is believing that all of their desires are from their heart when in fact they are rooted in the ego. The messages from our hearts are much different than the fear based desires of our egos. The ego is concerned with the future and obsessed with the past where as the heart only knows the present moment and communicates with you based on what you need right now. It will guide you to pursue activities that have always interested you and given you joy even if you don’t currently understand how they can help you. If you follow the heart in these activities it will show you through the present moment how you can make what you love to do your reality.

The heart pulls us out of our comfort zone. It challenges us and knows exactly what we can handle and what we need to grow and step into our true potential. When we trust our heart we feel free and excited yet frightened about letting go of the protective padding we formed around ourselves.

The heart can feel mysterious as it is always 10 steps ahead and pulling the strings on the higher levels of reality, as opposed to the ego, which usually makes “logical sense.” Sometimes the guidance from our heart will not make sense to our logical mind this is because in order to create change and experience shifts in your reality you must go outside what you believe to be safe. Staying within the confines of the ego goes against our natural process of expansion and can feel increasingly painful the longer we avoid taking responsibility.

Is this an ego want or a heart want?

The quiet pull of the heart challenges us, as it is the vehicle of change in our lives. The trick to manifesting your true potential into your reality is deciding whether the desire that you have is based in ego or based in the heart. Once you start to get good at distinguishing them allow yourself to start taking some small risks in homage to your heart, get a feel for it. Contrary to popular belief following your heart is not usually about making drastic life changes that shock your system; it’s about choosing to live from your heart in this moment. Many times when tragedies or painfully dramatic moments occur it is because we have ignored our hearts whispers and as a result all that energy builds up and eventually attracts a painful, eye opening experience. It impossible to fully ignore the magnetic pull of the heart in your life. When you live from your heart you make decisions from your heart, you build a rapport with your heart and your life will move effortlessly in the direction of your highest potential. Change happens gradually, in ways that you can handle, if you let go.

Negative Entities in the Astral Realm


Demons, negative entities in the astral realm.

Many people are afraid to lucid dream or experiment with their multi dimensional travel abilities because they are fearful that they will have an encounter with a negative being or some type of experience that will traumatize them. I completely understand this fear; I have had a few unpleasant astral experiences that made me question the point of astral adventuring. The solution to this fear is to educate ourselves as much as possible about the dynamics of our own consciousness and the realms we merge with when we dream lucidly.

We Fear the Unknown.

As our conscious mind has few reference points and little solid (conscious) experience with the higher dream realms so in our life these worlds represent the unknown. Naturally we fear this unknown space, we don’t feel like we have control there, we don’t know what to expect, and we feel vulnerable. One of the biggest fears that humanity as a whole has is the unknown and astral travel becomes the vehicle for these fears to manifest.

Are “demons” and “negative entities” appearing in your astral experience? Congratulations, you are being asked to raise to the occasion!

One mistake that many people make is that they are somehow victims in their astral experience- that demons or negative beings attack them or manipulate them. Although it cannot be denied that scary encounters can happen (and they can be quite terrifying) your point of power in these situations is the realization that these beings are in fact a representation of your own consciousness. They would not be standing before you in your dream state if on some level you were not calling them there. Our very existence is a game of attraction and magnetics; everything that comes into our waking or sleeping life is a key to our next step in expansion.

We work through our egoic beliefs and paradigms in the astral.

There are a few egotistical belief systems that we carry over from our third dimensional existence when we journey into the astral realm, these belief systems end up manifesting in unpleasant ways in the astral. The astral realm is not as heavy and slow as our 3.d existence so our karma and the reality of our current level of consciousness becomes front and center in our experiences. The fears and skeletons in our closet come and dance with us on our astral journeys, they challenge us to face them so we can move onto calmer more controlled adventures. They only come forward because you have the capability to transcend them, that action is truly how we “earn our wings” in multidimensional travel, they are our greatest teachers.

The best way to release fears about astral travel is to change the way you look at it. Your point of power is always responsibility, figure out why these experiences are happening. If you are being victimized in the astral do you have a victim mentality? Do you find yourself being a victimizer or overly aggressive with people? Or perhaps you have been told that scary things happen in the astral and it is not safe and as a result subconsciously manifest the experiences. Take responsibility for why it may be happening to you; try to be objective with yourself.

My Astral Trauma.

I had a re-occurring negative experience with an astral being a 8 years ago, it would hold me down and no matter how much I tried to move I couldn’t, I would wake up sweating and seriously wanted to quit my lucid dreaming practice. I decided to sit down, get still and allow the reasons for this experience to come forward in my mind and heart. I immediately felt fear come forward, oddly enough the fear wasn’t of the monster that was victimizing me in the astral, it was a deep fear of moving forward with my life. At the time I had made decisions because it was easy, I was deeply afraid of following my heart. In the meditation I saw the monster holding me down as a fearful aspect of my own consciousness that was holding me back. The monster was a direct manifestation of my own fear, I was the monster, I was holding myself back. It was shocking to me that something so nasty and mean was an aspect of my own consciousness! Of course my first reaction was to blame some discarnate, creepy, entity that runs around victimizing underserving people as they sleep. The truth is I was getting a good look at myself and how I was conducting my life. I was avoiding taking responsibility and my subconscious needed to get the message across to me. Thoughts are things in the astral so many times the aspects our ourselves that we don’t want to look at in our waking life appear as people, monsters or scary E.T’s , that is the nature of the higher dimensions, it is our job to learn how to navigate the landscape. After sorting out that experience I moved on and the negative astral experiences went away. I now had the confidence and a newfound passion to continue exploring the astral realms, which I now see, is really just higher aspects of myself.