We all have off days. Days where things feel like they’re not flowing. You feel like you are on the verge of some kind of emotional release. Perhaps an angry out burst, tears, or an anxiety rush is lingering just bellow the surface of your experience. The interesting thing about off days is that there is a much deeper rhythm to them than we may consciously know. Off days are not necessarily a result of our environmental stimuli like we may have been taught to believe, they are the result of subconscious waves of internal emotional patterns and experiences that reside inside of our consciousness. These frequency patterns are the result of how we consciously and unconsciously process our experiences. They are our “baggage, our fears, and they make up what is known as our “shadow self.” The shadow self is like the moon, it waxes and wanes, each phase magnetically pulling us inward and outward to glimpse at our deepest self. It is this rolling and undulating of our root emotional shadow self that unravels misunderstandings, clears heavy karma and neutralizes lagging emotional hang ups.
When the shadow self is full like the moon we are drawn inward into a contraction phase. This is our time to become still, pull our energy inward and allow all actions during this time to be mindful, gentle and resonant with our natural releasing process. This is not the time to force things, or fight to become more energized, this is a time to birth/release lower frequencies that no longer serve you. It is only through this necessary and natural birthing process that we are able to move upward and onward into an expansion period. This is a time to create art, meditate, be slow, write and of course get to know and accept/love your shadow self. This is a time to get deep, still and release all expectations of yourself and others.
One of the sacred gifts of the contraction phase is its depth, during this phase you are able to go deeper into yourself and into the cosmos then you are able to during an expansion phase. This is a gathering period as much as it is a releasing period, use its power and channel its energy to dig deep into your inner self and the mysteries of the universe. The answers will flow in with ease as the base frequencies that we embody during this phase are resonant with “hidden” or “lost” information. We can see clues that speak to this phenomenon in the High Priestess card in the Tarot. It is as though when we move into our shadow self we get night vision and the unknown can, once again, become the known.
Many times in spiritual teachings we learn to value joy, happiness and the rush of inspired thought. We are taught that this is the productive vibration to hold, and ultimately the sign that we are on the right track, and that is true. However, we must also honor the beautiful heaviness of inward contraction periods as it is the denial of these sacred times that causes depression, numbness and the sensation of being lost or disconnected.
All energy flows in waves of expansion and contraction. It is these opposing but complimentary waves that account for many of the laws in our universe and their manifestation on Earth such as: Day and Night, The ebb and flow of water, the expansion and contraction of the heart that pumps blood to give the body physical life, the contractions of the birth canal that move children into the world, and the contractions of orgasms that ground the very spark of human existence onto this planet. When we do not honor both the expansion and the contraction period, (the expansion period being masculine by nature: active, bright, assertive and externally focused and the contraction being feminine by nature: still, dark (shadow), surrendered, and internally focused.) we lose momentum in our lives, each phase feeds and enables the next. Without the releasing of heaviness by the contraction phase the expansion phase would not be able to propel us forward.
From time to time it is helpful to consider:
Am in an expansion or contraction phase? Am I you resisting this phase or embracing this phase? This process will help you greatly in aligning with your inner cycles to become more productive, peaceful and in tune.
Expansion Phase: sun, assertiveness, Outward focus, masculine, light, movement, inspired, tangible physical progress and results. Getting things done with ease, meeting new people, social, on a roll. Taking risks, putting yourself out there, bringing new things into your life.
Contraction Phase: Moon (in some teachings Earth), surrender, inward focus, feminine, release, stillness becomes mode of progress, alone time, Deep, intuitive insights and creativity , alignments and clearing occurring deep inside. Self nurturing. Doing mundane tasks, cleaning, organizing, honouring what you have.
Of course each phase, like a holograph contains all aspects of the complimentary phase. Like the yin yang symbol nothing is ever just feminine or just masculine there is always access and influence from the other phase. It is a matter of aligning and working with what phase is dominant contraction or expansion. Ideally there should not be an exclusivity towards one phase in favor of another.
“Off days” are only “Off days” if we are trying to make them “On days.” When we feel we are having an Off day it is more than likely that we are on some level resisting a phase we have silently eased into without realizing. It is not always obvious when we move into an contraction phase and it can be intimidating to take responsibility for the expansion phases in our lives. The trick is to figure out where you are in your rhythm and honor it. Simply by doing that you will step back into the flow of your own consciousness, where magic ultimately is bound to happen, it is simply a matter of time.