I love your videos and your blog, you have helped me through a very difficult time this past year. I was hoping you could help me understand why I keep falling over in my life lately. I feel like I am on a roll and I am doing so well then it stops. I start to feel really sad and lost and second guess everything I know I forget how I was even on such a high and feel like i am losing all of my work. What does it mean when this happens. It happens so much and it’s out of the blue.
Thank you in advance,
Hey Z, thank you for this question and your support. This happens to me as well and it is discouraging. I completely understand. There could be a few factors playing into these internal shifts and there are things we can do in our experience to help create a bit more emotional smoothness in our lives.
Your awareness changes form.
The first thing to perhaps consider is that we are not emotionally or energetically sedetary beings. There are undercurrents within our being that move as a mirror of the cosmic energy that flows through everything in existence. Essentially, our awareness changes form. Many times we do not realize that something has shifted within us, and we need to re-align in order to begin flowing again. This can cause a feeling of imbalance as you are trying to root into an undercurrent that has evolved without doing so yourself.
Why do we have these undercurrents?
We flow like water, we fluctuate like the seasons. This shifting allows us to explore the different facets of our personal consciousness. The shifts allow us to stand in another light and look at ourselves and what we are creating in our lives from another angle. Through this exploration of the seasons and tides of the self we learn what is constant, what is eternal, as it is only through seeing ourselves in many colours that we can begin to notice the part of us that is always the same. The part of us that doesn’t waver, even in the wildest hurricane. When we meet this part of ourselves we finally feel safe, and we can learn to live from that place as often as possible- It is from that place that we become the eye of the storm instead of the storm itself.
So, essentially expect seasons, know the tide will change, winter will come, and as you hold that knowing in your being, also know that you will come to feel the part of you that is immovable. That is the point of all this…to meet your immovable self.
The mind is not to be lived in.
If you are not feeling the flow shift within you early enough to ride the wave perhaps you are living in the part of your consciousness that cannot see the flow- your mind. The mind, although great at being linear and translating manifested reality for us, does not have the ability to interpret the subtle frequencies of the unmanifested. That is the higher minds job, and it does it automatically. So, if you are finding yourself confused as to why you aren’t in the flow, you were probably in your mind so much so that you didn’t get the memo from your higher self. But, thats OK, re-integrating the higher-mind into our daily tool-kit takes time and conscious effort.
Every time you move into the vibrational space where your higherself and heart can expand within you, you re-train physical and etheric pathways into your being. These pathways will become the new well-worn paths that your consciousness walks each day. You may feel like you are hacking through with a machete right now but like anything great, it takes time, effort, and dedication. You are no exception.
If we live within the mind too much the cosmic tide inside of us can change and we won’t even know it, not until we start to feel off . We feel off because the song has changed and we are still trying to dance to the old one. So, throughout the day, if you feel like the you are dancing to the old rhythm, surrender, disengage thought, and move into empty space, until eventually you begin to hear the new beat.
It may also help to consider that we are cars with a manual transmission.
We are cars with a manual transmission, not automatic. We have 2 main gears: higher mind and lower mind. We must become aware enough of our own flow that we know when to switch between the two.
We live in the day and age where everything is done for you, it’s all automatic. We don’t even have to walk up-stairs anymore we have escalators, we have microwaves that magically zap cook dinner, and countless other technologies that limit the meditative space that kept us patient. Anyway, our techno savvy behaviour has sunk deep into our minds, it seems we expect our world to work the same way we have fashioned our cars to work- automatically. We expect things to go well for us automatically, or through most of our energy going to the conscious mind, we do not consider what the undercurrents are flowing through us.
We are constantly dancing with the lower and higher mind. We must consciously chose when to align more with higher mind (unconscious) and when to align more with our lower mind (conscious). This is the process of learning our flow, when to surrender and when to take inspired action. In order to be happy and healthy we have to listen to our higher-selves again as we seem to be expecting to live in one gear of our consciousness (lower conscious mind.)We are trying to live life in mainly one gear, only shifting to the higher consciousness when something painful pushes us there.
Lets get good at shifting gears so our higher selves can teach the oscillation of the universe to our lower-mind, and when our lower mind comes to know that it is safe, and it is ok to get out of the way we can walk with one foot in each world. Eventually there will be no seam separating the seen and unseen and we will come to know them as two parts of the same machine. That journey is the process of us learning to integrate our highest potential and sail our own sea. It’s why we came here, so lets get to it. ;).