Fear of Oneness and Martyr Guides

Hey Gigi,

I would love to hear your thoughts on why I am so resistant to oneness. I like my personal identity and the idea of everyone being one irritates me.

Also or if you know of or have thoughts about high level guides incarnating on earth for some special purpose. Like guides that don’t “need” to be here but coordinated coming. Thanks!

I’m still in the esoteric closet so would wish to remain anonymous. Thank you for your videos. I love them!!


Hello JD!

Thank you for these questions, lets get to it!

Resistant to Oneness.

Right off the bat I get the impression/ feeling that you personally were involved in may past lives, and even potentially within this life, where you did not get to celebrate your unique identity. You did not get to express yourself fully and explore your individuality. Many times this comes from being involved in religions, cultures, or even family situations where you had to renounce who you truly were. For example dedicating your life to spirituality at a very young age, being drawn into a cult or religious movement where you had to renounce who you were in order to be “chosen”, suffering through arranged marriages when love and relationships were and important karmic theme, being born into certain cultures where you felt forced to let go of who you really are to fit in , even going to war or battle for the “sake of the greater good.”  All of those types of incarnations can leave an individual with a strong opposition to blending in and the feeling of losing individuality.  Unfortunately Sometimes on planet Earth we can attempt to mirror the idea of oneness and its highest expression in humanity, which is being of service. We do this unconsciously while participating  in religions, vocations, or strict familial arrangements that are intended to be of service but actually end up prematurely cutting individuals off from the exploration of their own identity which ironically is the true root of your service in this world. This can lead to a fear or resentment of the feeling of oneness and the loss of personal identity in which it is associated.

What is the solution to this kind of experience? 

It can be very helpful to acknowledge and accept that you have this reaction. It is completely normal to have aversions to opening up to our higher selves and re-experiencing oneness. Connecting with the godhead, which represents oneness, is no small feat, and it is perfectly OK if it makes you feel uneasy. The depth at which you allow yourself to feel ease with where you are is equal to the openess that will allow the answers to come that allow you to release it.

Oneness perspectives

Also, it must be said that as our consciousness is multidimensional by nature, meaning that it exists simultaneously on many different plains and dimensions of reality, we have the ability to slip into oneness consciousness and not necessarily lose ourselves within it. The reason for this is that although you are perceiving or experiencing oneness you are doing so rooted into a 3d consciousness. As long as you are in your body and experiencing this life your 3d perspective and personality/ individuality will be intact.

It is also in our nature, as multidimensional beings directly embodying the godhead, to actually experience different sensations and realities simultaneously. That means that as we grow and evolve spiritually we gain the ability to hold two (or more) simultaneous experiences within our consciousness without feeling panic or a need to control and refine the experiences into one. That means that we can experience, simultaneously the feeling of oneness, the experience of oneness while still feeling and experiencing our complete individuality as a 3d human.

Guides that do not need to be here or have no karmic ties.

This is an interesting concept as there is a distinct tone of martyrdom. We envision saintly, angelic saviours so pure that they don’t really need to be here but chose to anyway because they are so selfless. In my experience and knowledge of the incarnational process those types of incarnations don’t really take place. Many times we project a very innocent, karma-less pure, persona onto highly service based individuals who incarnate on Earth. We do this because when we interpret their energy it can be so strongly in alignment (in certain areas) compared to how we feel about our own that it can feel that way. We can feel that perhaps they have less distortions or shadows in particular areas compared to our where we feel we are. This can bring us to feelings of inspiration and awe can lead us to the worship of certain people or treating them like gurus. It is accurate to say that certain individuals incarnate into lives where they are very service oriented, inspirational, knowledgable with an uncanny ability to teach and heal. It would not be accurate to say that those people carry no karma or are seriously different than anyone else on the planet.

We all have lives where we embody a great deal of energy which may be interpreted by others as similar to an avatar or guru. All possible expressions of your soul are explored throughout various levels of time and space. This means that as a soul you have/ are living the highest expression imaginable and of course you have also lived some very dark and distorted lives where you were as “dark” and in pain as you were inspirational and full of light.

Truth be told highly spiritual teachers simply have chosen to experience life themes in which they inspire and heal, and to be honest, many individuals who have very inspiring powerful lives on Earth had equally impactful incarnations where they used those abilities to serve themselves more than others. Many times as a soul we must move through many “shadow lives” where we hurt ourselves and others (service to self) before we begin incarnating into lives where we heal and inspire others (service to others). The best teachers and healers are that way because they deeply understand their light. Teaching about divine energy, self empowerment, love, all uplifting healing topics is something that  requires some serious journeying into their inverse or darker expressions of their talents. Raw passion and charisma can be used to encourage and uplift or destroy and supress. Experiencing all possible distortions of your soul motivates us and gives us depth that is recognized as “truth’ by others. Generally souls incarnating into this timeline with  at the beginning of their journey (innocent), with very little  karmic experience to anchor them, have little knowledge or insights into how to thrive in 3d reality. They usually chose to live more secluded lives for a while in order to integrate 3d reality.  You can bet that any individual that lights your heart on fire and brings you to love has done some pretty sketchy things in their darker incarnations, and to be honest, I wouldn’t trust ‘em if they hadn’t.

I hope that helps,



You are the Creator.

You are the creator. You are the point of control for your reality. Your thoughts, your emotions. The ones that you let wash over you, and build momentum inside of you are the seeds of the world that you are moving into. Creation is the process of un-manifested raw spiritual energy moving through your consciousness to become physical action and physical matter. That is the process. If you spend the majority of your time focusing on the material forms around you and wondering why they haven;t changed, it is most likely because you are putting your powerful creative focus on the wrong end of the chain. You are waking up at midnight and getting angry that the sun isn’t rising. Get back into the rhythm of creation. Begin with realizing that your thoughts and emotions set the tone for your day today and your future.

Understand that energy works via momentum and thresholds. It is your job to build momentum through your dedication to positive, healthy, empowering thoughts and emotions. As you do this you will move through thresholds, or membranes of energy that feel like “tests” but are actually spring boards that catepault you into your highest expression.

We are creators we create through action, through making a choice to act differently and sticking to it for long enough to build momentum and reach a new threshold. Once that happens we have set a new precenebt and we shift into a new reality. One that has less pain and less stress than yesterday.

I have fallen in love with astrology. This is no surprise with someone like me who  is obvious made of Neptune and other watery, mystical components that make one live in two worlds at once. Anyway, today I met Chiron. Chiron is a comet/planet that lives his life spinning between Saturn and Uranus. I imagine that Uranus is a “bad influence” and Saturn is kind of controlling so naturally Chiron has learned when to talk to Uranus and get out of the box and when to hang out with Saturn to get back in it. This would make Chiron an alchemist because that is what we become when we build bridges between two worlds, when we integrate 2 seemingly different aspects of  reality into one lump of gold.

The universe outside moves within you. The way it moves within you is your personality. Where Chiron is inside you tells you how you will become the alchemist, it shows you your deepest wounds, the parts of your soul that need to be untied and rebound into truth.

The parts of us that were cut the deepest are the parts of us that we are called upon to sew up, apply iodine three times a day and heal. Although there are people around us full of love and compassion we find that the main component in our healing is actually our own conscious dedication to its process, It is our consciousness awareness in this process and our ability to take responsibility and look and things that challenge us to believe that we are a lie that makes us a teacher whether we want to or not. What you carry now is too precious to store away in the attic of your heart, in fact you couldn’t hide there even if you wanted to. In our healing we contain specific vibrational codes that represent alchemy at their finest. They ring loudly in the resonance’s we call conviction, gentle strength, compassion, empathy, knowledge, courage and deep inner peace. I say  “deep” inner peace because when the part of you that is a storm becomes settles it turns into depth.

This depth is what we all crave as when you can create calm that deep it is a powerful stillness, one that cannot be shaken, it is too wide, it knows too much. This type of stillness, the deep kind, was born out of struggle and pain, to be specific the kind of pain that uses fear to rudely unearth every root you have. In that process only what is real is left and your acceptence of the emptiness that comes with this realization brings you to your true self, the one you have always wanted to be but had no idea what it looked like, what you would look like. The peace you learn to feel from this cannot be easily shaken as once you really get to meet that part of, you realize you are home, you are home within yourself.  When you feel that kind of alignment  you have  perspective, you decode your environment with eyes that have been forced to see that everything is perfect and always will be.

Timelines. – Solenaha & Asthara

July 2013 Timelines. – Solenaha & Asthara

I thought I would share a conversation I had with Solen and Asthara this morning among the crickets.


We are vibration and it is the frequency of our vibration that determines our future.


Each moment that you find yourself in is connected to an infinite number of timelines, potential futures that you can align with according to your base vibrational frequency. Your base vibrational frequency is determined by the thoughts you think and the emotions that you feel, it is influenced by the unique resonance of your soul. Taking responsibility for your thoughts and emotions is the best way to weave into timelines that are representative of your highest joy.


The joining of these future paths is called a timeline and within each timeline is specific experiences that aid you in expressing yourself fully on this planet.  Full expression involves moving our idea of intelligence from the brain and mind to the heart.


There has been an acceleration of our consciousness and at this point in time there is a lot of releasing behind us. For the last 4 years the acceleration of light and information moving through our consciousness has created many opportunities for the release of karmic cycles and the tying up of karmic contracts. This process is done with little effort when the heart is allowed to expand into the forefront of our consciousness. Surrendering to your heart via bringing your focus to stillness and sensation as opposed to thoughts allows karmic contracts predominantly fed by thoughts to die off effortlessly. Releasing is most effecting when we can move into a state of deep surrender. Within the hearts frequency is your truth and when you become saturated in it you can feel your truth form around you in happy experiences and exhilerating opportunities to shine.

 Timelines become streamlined

Now, as a result of all that releasing the timelines that are available to shift into are becoming more streamlined. There are less polarizing options when it comes to the futures you have available to shift into, there can be less of a feeling of indecision and confusion when it comes to what is resonant and what is not. This is because a great deal of personal work has been done and your core vibrational frequencies are becoming more unison allowing you to sense and move into your truth much easier. Congratulations.

Not meeting  releasing thresholds 

It must also be addressed that there are individuals who have not been releasing at their threshold points. At this point in time and in their future timelines their self expression may become more painful as living too much within the egoic mind will become more and more difficult as heart energies begin to saturate the planet. The symptoms of this will be intense anger /rage rising to the surface, physical pain developing or worsening, argumentativeness and irritability, sadness and deep states of depression, intensifying of addictions. These symptoms are coming to the forefront of the personality in order to bring individuals to a powerful releasing point.

If there are individuals in your life who you feel are experiencing this to any degree the best way to support them is to let it be known that you love and care for them and then let them be. Love them enough to disengage if they become harsh with you,  let them process, they are not their pain. This may be difficult but any engagement of ego on your part will distract them from discovering whatever it is they need to take responsibility for.

When we lovingly disengage with people who have become destructive we become a mirror for them and aid them in their transformation.

Please know that these individuals have the ability to go inward just as you did. The answers and guidance that they seek is within themselves and it can take time to get there. Ultimately everyone needs to learn how to go inward for answers and inspiration and when we allow people to experience their pain we assist them in connecting with the deepest levels of their higherself. We all have set our awakening alarm clock for different times and it important for that to be OK.

Water, the collective heart.
Heart energies are associated with water and once they begin to ground on this watery planet their effect is magnified. Heart resonance sits in the oceans and shines outward, it cannot be taken back or stopped as it is the currency that connects us all. It is this momentum that brings people to themselves whether it be through gentle surrender or through painful surrender.







How Can I Serve?

Starting your day: “How can I serve.”


Everyday I start my day by asking “How can I serve.” This seemingly simple act is perhaps the most aligning action we ca do. When we say this we are directly acknowledging our higherself and trusting that it will provide us insights into the best possible use of our time today. That it will show what action is the most beneficial at this time, how to approach people at work, and whether today is a more active day or introspective day. When we ask this question we attune to the rhythm of our own hearts and we line ourselves up for synchronicity after synchronicity. Sometimes it leads you into the mundane and other times into the unknown, the secret is to do it anyway even if your mind cannot grasp why.


Living From a New Place.


Perhaps the most beautiful part of starting your day like this is the surrender of control we experience. When we set the tone by allowing the larger part of our consciousness to show us the appropriate vibrational tone to live from moment to moment we do not need to turn to the mind for guidance. This is imperative as the mind will only encourage you to do what you did yesterday, or last year, or 20 years ago, it will tell you how to be “safe”, and lead you to live within boxes, and think in circles, it will manifest your future to be smaller than you are. If you are consistantly choosing what is “safe” and only trusting what you “know” you will live a life that is shrinking in around you as it is in our nature to expand and become more than we think we are, avoiding that expansion is painful and being “safe” can easily become unsafe.  The mind is not for creating, the mind is for integration, grounding and analysis of what you are receiving through your heart and higher mind.


Our highest purpose is always service.


Even if you feel as though your purpose is not in direct service you make an impact. You do not need to be a nurse, a teacher, or a volunteer at a soup kitchen to be contributing to society. Those are direct and obvious service roles but they are not more important or uplifting than the quiet indirect personal actions we do from our hearts day to day. In fact sometimes your greatest point of service to humanity is simply cleaning and organizing your house, having a nap, or calling a friend.  Any action from your heart is an action of service, all hearts, all people, work in tandem with each other, when one becomes uplifted by default others will as well. This happens electrically, silently, behind your mind where everything is strings of energy and there is no space between me and you. We are more efficient beings when we function from the place that connects us directly to all of creation. It is time to trust and let ourselves live this way again.


The Seeding. Creator Gods. Bloodlines.

The Seeding.

You are the creator beings.

The creator beings who seeded the planet are currently incarnated living within their creation. There is no separateness between creator gods and the beings created and expressing said creation. You are a creator god, if you were to follow your individual soul frequency up your oversoul you would discover it merging, like a drop of water into an ocean, with the highest level of creator beings. Understanding this, that you created this world as opposed to someone outside of you, is an incredibly empowering truth to grasp. It allows you to begin creating a much bigger life for yourself as you realize you are part of the bigger picture within this planets history and future.

Royal Bloodlines.

Every race is connected to creator gods, there is no bloodline that is more valid or more powerful than another. It only appears that certain bloodlines are more sacred as specific dimensions within the structure of that lineage were relevant at the time to planet Earth. Or, in other words at the time the karmic stories connected to a certain bloodline were being played out on Earth, that meant that the races or bloodlines associated with it would express the karmic roles etherically stored within those specific genetics. Essentailly, each race and root bloodline has their time to swing into the spotlight and express dominance or submissive roles within the world. Many humans, only being alive for small portions of greater karmic cycles (approx. 50 to 100 years per person), assumed that they were greater or less due to their physical genetics or bloodline.

The big picture is that each creator god/ goddess allowed their specific vibrational soul spectrum, which is much larger and diverse than humans due to their higher density, to be expressed physically.  Each creator “being” represented specific frequencies of the godhead and to creator beings the godhead is their creator. Each creator being allowed the harmonics of their own soul to be pulled down density by density splitting each sound into individual notes as they went. All of this splitting of the original harmonics become more and more physical as it continued descending and seeding itself.  This took an incredibly long time and by the time this seeding process began on Earth there were seemingly infinite physical expressions of original soul harmonics of creator gods. You can look at the diversity within our own planet, the plants, and animals and only begin to understand the diversity of the expression of the godhead within the universe. All that you see, plant, animal, rock, is all traceable back up to a specific aspect of a creator being, also a specific aspect of you.


Each Race, Each Bloodline is a Valid Key in the Expression of the Godhead.

When it comes to bloodlines and races, galactic races or ones on our own planet. Each bloodline is valid and each has specific expressions of divine energy, each represent a genetic code associated with creator gods. We must remember that creator gods created in order to experience their own creations, they incarnated within their own manifested worlds. “They” are “We” “You” are “Them.” Etheric DNA and physical DNA must have matching codes in order to house and express a soul (as seen in: this article ) , that means that each bloodline, each specific race or sub-race represents the “gods.” Each physical race, and culture represents an specific expression of the creator gods frequency, and it does so in order to allow creator gods to incarnate into their own story and express themselves as they please.

The question is no longer, what is the royal blood line? Is it more connected to ET’s or god?  These questions are only popping up as we are not yet consciously aware that every bloodline has been royalty and ruled on this planet, each bloodline has also been judged, misunderstood and persecuted. The  real question we should be asking is what ancient inter-dimensional beings am I connected to physically and etherically? What is my story in this life and what am I expressing? Once we can begin to understand each culture and physical expression as a specific and valuable viehicle for a soul to experience we can understand the type of grounded form our soul needed to be here. Each physical body is a specific chosen mix of DNA to house a soul that is needed to express itself on this planet at this time.

Elvin Masters

We are a root race, a master race. We keep using those words not to offend you but to help you understand the true meaning of root races and master races. There is no race that is better than the other, there is no race that is higher than the other. We are all worker bee’s working for the expression of the godhead. We all serve the hive. Elves are a root race to Earth and many other civilizations as we are active in the highest dimensions where indivulality can still exist. We exist in the dimension that is one below the space where there is no more individuality, beyond our plane conscoiousness is joined together and expressed as a few archetypal conglomerates, we associate these conglomerates with the base energies of: Fire, Water, Earth and Air. We do not include ether the way you do to us ether represents pure potential and is the space in which the four elements breath and oscilate. Even the four elemental energies we mentioned are not specifically fire, water, earth and air they are the root frequencies that created fire, water earth and air, it is the driving specific energetic nature of them.


We are made of these elements as well and our consciousness expresses them right into the elemental realm. We have many forms but our higher form, the for that is projected within the higher realms is actually tall, willowy, dainty, whispy and graceful. We have this form as it represents wisdom. We have long fingers and large eyes, our eyes represent innocensce and the playfulness of a child while our long fingers represent our ability to reach into many worlds at once and teach. We dress in robes, usually in light colours and we are telempathic. We are alive in all of you.


Eleven is Elvin.

Here is my experience connecting/ channeling elvin consciousness. They really wanted me to know that they are the vibration of the number 11. I hope that even in its strangeness you can feel yourself somewhere because the truth is, you wouldn’t be reading this unless it was alive in you.


(music playing or harmony is heard behind words  )

We are glad that you are beginning to connect to the part of you that is the closest. We were wondering how long it would take you to understand that you are elvin. There is no difference between elvin and the wor(l)d eleven. Both represent a strong connection to high levels of universal knowledge and elves have deep roots expressing on earth in a very grounded way with very tall branches that reach into the highest dimensions.

Now that you have opened the elvin chamber in your heart you will notice the gentle creatures coming around you, deer, rabbit, birds etc. Their nature and sensitivity is a reflection of the sensitivity of elves, when you perceive many layers of the world, when you see into different dimensions all the time you become more sensitive and gentle. Individuals who have these as their totems have a c(h)ord with the elvish, the elevinish.

Elves are the builders of archetypes and are found stretching into the 11th dimension. Elevin is elvin is eleven. Eleven is a “master number” master not meaning superior referring to the eleventh world. The worlds that exist within the eleventh tone are the worlds where the fractals that constuct the lower (denser) worlds are imagined.  When they are imagined they are made and are carried down through the dimensions to be gradually expressed more and more physically. First, they are colours, porportions, music, light, feeling, movement…then they are combined and blended and shaped and pulled down through souls deeper and deeper into the lower dimensions, deeper and deeper until time forms. This process is done through the magnetic nature of souls we call curiosity.

elvin : elvin gateway.


elvin : elvin gateway.

Etheric DNA and Starseeds & Elvin Bloodlines.

Etheric DNA and Starseeds & Elvin Bloodlines.


Here is a teaching from Solenaha, oh wait. As I wrote that I realized that this one wasn’t from Solen but a new guide that is connected to a “High council of Elves” that  her name is (D)Tiahrwyn(m) (The “r” is rolled) and it is said quite fast and breathy.  


When we are born we are a conglomerate, we are a mixture of specific lineages that are both Earth based ancestry and etheric ancestry.


Etheric ancestry are cords of light that activate specific threads in our etheric DNA, these chords of light are rooted in specific experiences within the our oversoul that we are carrying into this life, for example: Pleiadian, Arcturian, Elvin, Lyran. All of these stories, the karma, the talents, the abilities, the secrets, the lessons, are all stored in your etheric DNA waiting to be expressed and awakened.


Etheric DNA

We can begin becoming aware and integrating our etheric DNA when we begin to hold more light within our physical body. We begin to hold more light when we release paradigms that are distorted and heavy and not representative of our DNA/ our purpose.  In other wor(l)ds the more you release negative belief systems the more space you create  and in truth empty space isn’t empty, its full of you.

Empty Space.

Empty space is full of you in your purest form, it feels like a void only because you are looking at yourself. Empty space created by a stilling of the heart and mind will always be filled with your true nature which in turn is rooted and expressed with your etheric and physical DNA. Silence, stillness, and over flowing your bioenergetic feild with the void that is you, will activate your etheric DNA very quickly. Silence and meditation is the most efficient way to activate you etheric DNA. Silence is incredibly loud to the parts of you that are not in the physical, it is a call to unify, and bring together all the parts of you that need to come forward. All the expressions that want to be remembered, that want to assist you that have the answers that you are wanting to integrate work in your silence. Without silence they cannot make a connection, they cannot get through the insanity, they need space in order to fit in. When they begin to click in, to fit in, your etheric DNA lights up, you get downloads, you get information, you advance with an inspired heart and mind.

Physical DNA & Lineages.

Physical Ancestry can be traced within the physical elements of our DNA. Our physical DNA reveals our physical manifested history here, on Earth, based on our family and genetic makeup. It contains . Before your incarnation into this world you see and feel all of the options/codes available to incarnate into within the specific human DNA options available to you between your parents. There are more opportunities than you can imagine within the combined stories and characteristics of your parents DNA. Specific threads of DNA are more appealing to certain souls incarnating as the physical incarnation, the body that is to function within the spectrum of physicality, needs to have certain amounts of similarity to the base frequency of the soul. For example it is easier for a soul who is incarnating through the pleiades with influences from Lyra, Elvin worlds and Sirus to choose individuals who have physical bloodlines that are rooted in those civilizations. This means that the body will be conductive to the raw spiritual matter contained in the soul that needs to come through. A great deal of the incarnation process is about conductivity of the soul and its abilities – to express itself within a physical body.


There are Elvin bloodlines as well as Pleiadian, Sirian, Lyrian etc. bloodlines. We are all a mosaic of several divine races with a few that will be more dominant than others throughout your life. All are relevant of course however specific lineages, specific aspects of your DNA will be more apparent, more useful for you to draw from in your life. This is because those specific lineages, physical and etheric, are instrumental in supporting and grounding your souls expression.